March 26, 2025 - doubtful days

Today's Summary: 
A day full of doubts.

I started strong(ish). The buzzing alarms woke me up, but I hit snooze a few extra times—it was just so cozy. I had to pull out my “discipline” mantra to get my butt in gear. Luckily, work is still slow, so I could shift my schedule slightly. Only 15 minutes later than usual, but that would’ve thrown everything off on a normal day.

Then doubt started creeping in.

It showed up at the track. I was walking slower than usual because I was trying to talk-to-text some writing for my novel. But the words just weren’t flowing. It felt off—like I was giving up pace for nothing.

Back home, I tried to edit yesterday’s blog post and hated every sentence I wrote. Nothing sounded right. Everything felt flat.

It might be the scale too. I know better than to weigh early, but I peeked yesterday and this morning. And while the number isn’t bad, it’s not the drop I hoped for. That’s what I get for snooping on my presents before Christmas—I should just wait for my Friday weigh-ins.

Anyway... it’s an off day.

But I’m not stopping.
I refuse.

Stats - 
Workout: Track -11 laps in lane 8 = 3.1 miles

Calories: 1,914    

Water: 76oz

Steps: 11,027


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